The following blog is supported 100% by documents which were sealed away per internal memo and never publicly revealed, as well as by my memory fragments, scattered and shattered, which emerged over a 12 year period without counseling directing them and which contained very specific details that matched those hidden documents. That is key: my memory fragments matched never released information and those key facts of the case never publicly disclosed were direct ties back to the fact that I did indeed survive. Note: this is an older post to the other posts on the website and mirrors much of what is said in the “she said” post. I have been trying to express myself and what happened and correct the story about Bundy for a long time and I have been blocked for over twenty years by authorities who refused to even investigate the public lies against the records.
Those memory fragments were in writing, time and date stamped as far back as 2001 and sooner. Some of what I say is actually supported by comments in Keppel’s book, “Riverman” such as my location behind the Theta house in an apartment, the location where Georgann Hawkins [who I knew] was abducted and Bundy’s comments that someone “might have seen” him [it was outside my window] and Bundy’s comment to Keppel to go back over that scene which Keppel never did.
I had severe memory issues back then associated not only to psychological trauma but also to physical injury and these are all documented in my medical records back then and also by people who knew me and observed bruising and panic attacks but did not understand the reasons for them as I couldn’t and wouldn’t share what had been happening. I was afraid not only of him but of my memory issues. He was using drugs and imbibing in captivity which rendered me very vulnerable and I knew he was close to police and working in government affiliated positions. The imbibing and drugging is supported by both Bundy comments behind the scenes in the records as well as by what was found on site at his kill site locations. It is also supported by autopsy reports where drugs and imbibing was found in victim’s remains – something the officials knew all along and failed the public in by closing Bundy cases in 1992 per the FBI report of “we’ll never know” and allowing Keppel to put forward a false narrative that lasted for decades for his own personal profit. These sites of Bundy’s were not “dumping grounds”. Evidence strongly suggests he was using them to hold victims captive including myself [at abandoned homes nearby or on the fields] before killing them. And evidence such as the thermos near a skull, bong, snug tie, and chemical bottles also strongly suggest the imbibing of victims bound.
I knew about Bundy’s affiliations to law enforcement because when he was stalking me in high school and calling me on the phone as a “friend” leading up to a violent rape that nearly killed me, he was working with the government offices in Olympia with Ludlow Kramer and Dan Evans and he was active in the Republican Party. I have a photo of me at Ludlow Kramer’s office and my emails to Ann Rule specifically stated locations and times Bundy was in these spots long before any of it was made public. Ann Rule of course was working with Keppel to promote the lies and so in some ways was Stephen Michaud.
I was new to the state of WA having moved there the summer of 1970 before my 16th birthday, I had parents that were not involved in their children’s lives and I knew no one as I was new to the state and had no support system. That imbibing that Bundy did to victims is documented in the hidden street files in multiple places not only in WA but also in Utah. It is also noted in some of the victim’s autopsies – that they had been imbibed and one had suffered alcohol poisoning who had been held captive by Bundy for several days before he killed her. The FBI documents of those years mention a survivor that Bundy used as a “dry run” – a survivor. That dry run comment is by its very definition a move against a target. If you look at my characteristics [looks, very petite I was only 5 feet 3 inches at the time and barely over 100 pounds, a nursing student, sorority girl, father a doctor, broken home, etc.] it all lines up as well as my locations not only in the University District but also around WA and in other states such as Oregon and California –it is irrefutable.
Robert Keppel’s treatment of me as a victim in combination with Ann Rule’s exploitation of my memory struggles and others in FBI is appalling. Especially given that the fragments of memory I was conveying to all these people lined up to the evidence they KNEW was hidden and that it verified me all along. Especially Keppel. It is my belief now that Robert Keppel was desperately trying to discredit me behind the scenes and publicly [by claims of “no survivors in WA] because of the illegal tampering of evidence that he did behind the scenes. And it WAS by his hand that many of these alterations of documents were done.
The bullying and discrimination and public defamation [in books and media] as well as blocking my attempts to get attorneys to help me by denying me any investigation is inexcusable and to me amounts to breaking witness intimidation and victim laws. I met with a private investigator back then to find out why I was being defamed and bullied by Keppel and he found out Keppel had been blocking my attempts to talk to police and authorities behind the scenes and that Keppel had been fabricating lies about me [“she just wants publicity and she’s not believable”]. This private detective had seen only some of the evidence but he was a former cop and he felt that it needed further evaluation. But his attempts were rejected also. The only time the Attorney General investigation area of HITS had someone interview the guy was hostile, told me to my face I was “wasting” his time and he refused to look at any evidence yet the HITS team had him labeled as a “victim” trained interviewer. What a joke. He was nothing more than someone trying to get me to stay silent.
The FBI prides itself on victim laws and its involvement in Bundy cases and that is a joke. The FBI has done nothing over the past 20 years except to support the public lies being put forward by Keppel and others who served in its own capacity. The FBI lied to the public about their involvement and even about the case denying publicly the incredible amount of evidence found at Taylor Mountain. Not only did they lie to the public they lied to investigators in other states who were actually trying to do their job and needed information about Bundy, not FBI BAU so called “profiling” which was wrong initially and not based on anything except Keppel inspired lies, but real facts and information such as those contained in the crime scenes, forensics.
An example of such lies are the denial of evidence lists of Taylor and Tiger Mountain which include skeletal remains documented by an ME on site at the time and included in multiple detective notes as well as Keppel’s own notes so he knew very well more than heads were found [not just heads as Keppel has claimed publicly for decades] and evidence of Bundy imbibing, abandoned homes near the kill sites in WA, critical weapons of Bundy’s taken in by WA and so on.
Photo above is of me at Ludlow Kramer’s office in March of 1972, a time when Bundy was employed by Kramer behind the scenes to assist in the development of Kramer’s re-election campaign. Bundy was also close to Governor Dan Evans and I have a photo of me in Governor Dan Evan’s office with a high school pageant. Bundy knew ahead of time I was going there as he told me that the offices at the State had been notified the girls in the pageant were coming and I was one of those girls.
I am pictured on site in the very office where Bundy worked and that fact was never public and it is very specific in my accounting to these officials of the case over the years. I was in high school at the time and newly turned 17 at the time and Bundy had been stalking me since I arrived in the state of WA in Tacoma at age 16. Not only was I stating a fact in existence behind the scenes [Bundy working with Kramer in early 1972 and being frequently in Governor Dan Evan’s offices] but it is supported by that photograph with Kramer and one with Evans and by more than one government official account testimony in the records. According to the Rosellini investigation documents, Bundy was working closely with Republican high level officials in several capacities since 1969 forward. He was working with Kramer’s office since early in 1972. That is supported by two different accounts/statements of Republican officials in the street files. This was never publicly released and I had been putting this forward since early 2000s if not sooner. Keppel and the FBI have spun this case to avoid the correlations to politics. It makes me wonder what all they have been hiding.
The following is a list of points of alignment in terms of characteristics of victimology. This is not the entire list: in all, there are over 50.
- My age during the time I knew him was consistent with that of his victims: 16 to 21. Ted Bundy was 8 years older than me but in his initial contact with me when I had just turned 16 he told me he was only a year older.
- My physical look: small build, 5’3”, long brown hair to my waist parted in the middle, brown eyes, brown hair, slender build at 105 pounds. I wore juniors clothing when I was a freshman and sophomore in college as could not fit into most women’s clothing labels. He could carry me easily when I was unconscious.
- I wore pants nearly all the time in college due to the distances I had to walk between classes. Most of his victims in WA State were wearing pants. That is consistent to his MO.
- I lived in proximity to him in Tacoma and in college at the Univ of WA. I was often in the newspaper in high school for modeling and school activities and he was following my movements through the newspapers and would call me about the articles.
- I tried out for cheer leading in high school and didn’t get it but I did get on the drill team. He was in touch with me during that time and calling my home using the name “Teddy”. He was setting himself up as my friend [telling me he was a year older when in reality he was 8 years older] before luring me out for a violent rape and kill attempt. I fit the profile characteristics of his high school victims – I looked a lot, even down to the hair style, like Laura Aime and his actions towards her mirrored his actions towards me and I couldn’t have known. He surveilled and stalked Laura Aime [a case they rarely mention] and had contact with her friends who could have identified him and like me he also held her captive for a period of time, though he killed her and I was released. I had stated to authorities for years that he had been calling me in high school and that he’d lured me out and raped me during that time – this preceded release of his surveillance activity prior to abductions and his targeting of high school girls that was not random but planned. I begged them to pull my phone records. I knew what car he was driving in 1971 [never released] and I knew he was working at Ludlow Kramer’s office who at the time was Secretary of State of WA.
- I had pierced ears. [Many of his victims and girls missing but never found had pierced ears]
- Like Georgann Hawkins, I was in the Daffodil pageant representing my school.
- As part of that pageant I made a trip to Ludlow Kramer’s office and to Governor Dan Evans’ office. I knew George – she was a friend. Ted worked with Ludlow Kramer and I have a photo of me there at Kramer’s office – this fact had never been publicly released. This documentation of Bundy’s close association to Kramer is in the files and is exactly during the time period [him working there in the office] that I had been claiming all along. It is documented in more than one record. He parked outside my window the night he abducted her as I lived behind the Theta house that year at college in an apartment that faced the alley. There was a large bush outside of my window that shielded a car from being seen and he would park there when he was stalking me. It was terrifying. It was where he parked the night he abducted Georgann Hawkins.
- I was in proximity to him in Tacoma and in Seattle and in all of my travels in WA, OR, CA, from the years 1970 to 1976 when I ran away from him in a state of severe shock and trauma and suffering fragmented extensive memory loss.
- The name “Teddy” an alias of his is in my senior yearbook and in conjunction with that the note also states Teddy and Wilson and the class I was in at the time referenced in the note was psychology. It was noted in the yearbook as “Teddy’s class”. Bundy was a psychology major at the time at the Univ of WA.
- My father moved out of our home in Lakewood to an apartment near UPS the summer of 1971. Ted was known to frequent parties there. I used to frequent dances there with a girlfriend. This too is noted in the yearbook. My father’s apartment was about a mile from Ted’s family home in Tacoma per the records which had not been released during the time I was coming forward. My father was a doctor and rotated through hospitals – Ted’s mom worked at one of the hospitals. My father later in summer of 1974 moved to a home that was even closer to Bundy’s parents home, less than a mile away. My parents had a set of expensive pots and pans stolen from their home the summer of 1974 and Bundy had an expensive set of pots and pans that showed up in Utah that Liz noticed.
- I skied frequently at Crystal Mountain, Alpental, and Snowqualamie ski resorts: the same resorts Ted skied at. I have several memories of running into him there.
- I stated over and over in my emails to Ann Rule time and date stamped and saved to this day that Ted had raped me in high school and that it was violent and I felt I had been nearly killed. That was in the summer of 1971 and possibly again in 1972 as he continued to call and monitor my whereabouts. Ted was reported by a woman in 1972 to the police for a rape. Her complaint was not taken seriously by Keppel or any other official at the time as she was described as “imbibed” but records show that Ted imbibed his victims that he held in captivity before killing them. Bundy was a “buddy” and there was a lot of “group think and buddy justice” during that time period. Keppel was especially guilty of it. At least three of his victims are documented as being forced to consume alcohol while in captivity. I was forced to consumer alcohol and other drug agents. It’s been stated that Ted carried a bottle of wine in his car when he was out to abduct a victim and that this wine was for him to drink. It wasn’t. That wine bottle was to use against his victims, to imbibe them, to drug them so that they would be easier to control and if by chance they escaped or like me, were released imbibed to the point where I could hardly walk, the ability to report and be believed and to remember anything would be prohibited. Bundy knew this because he researched it during his time as Assistant Director to the Crime Commission in Seattle. Bundy drank and smoked dope. I don’t dispute that. But that bottle of wine in his car in my experiences of living through it was for the victim. This too is in my memories of that rape event. That I had felt drugged. That I couldn’t walk after kidnappings and could barely be aware of where I was – that I had terrible headaches and that he hit me on the head with something from behind. These memories emerged years before I got the records and I can prove it. Some of these were sent to FBI in Seattle in 2011 and they ignored them entirely and then FBI issued a statement in 2011 that they’d only consider DNA evidence from that point forward and the cops and Attorney General of WA began to move all the Bundy evidence that was incriminating to him and to them back then into an area of the archives where it could not be accessed by even other cops in other divisions in an attempt to destroy it. Unfortunately for them it was released to me legally and I paid for it and I got permission to use it. I also have the paper trail to prove these statements.
- I also reported during that rape in high school and his stalking of me during 1970 to 1972 that he was driving a VW. In the records that car usage in 1970-72 was confirmed. They never talk of it publicly even to this day. There are two cars he drove earlier than 1973 and both were VWs. My accounts matched both vehicles. It had never been reported publicly. My complaint and report of the rape mirrored some of the accounts in his earliest killings and also the account of the woman who reported him for rape and who they discounted.
- I went to the University of Washington for my college education, starting in the fall of 1972. I ran away from him to Southern California in a state of shock in the summer of 1976. His stalking of me had continued actively until he was picked up in Utah. I was being terrorized and could not talk of it to anyone because of the perceived power he held with the imbibing of me and also with memory issues and intimidation of his affiliation with police and government. I was in a sorority at the University of Washington that was on the corner of 45th and 18th a mere 3 blocks from where Liz lived at the time and then I moved from there to a sorority annex three blocks away that was on 16th, between 45th and 47th and which faced an alley that ran behind the Theta house and Greek Row. Then I moved to campus for the summer of 1974 to the McMahon dorm while in nursing school and then I moved in the fall of 1974 to an apartment I shared with an older sorority sister that was near the hill on 45th that ran to the University District Shopping Center and there was a pathway that ran behind my apartments to that Center. Ted was documented in surveillance records as moving in all the locations that I had been living in. Ted told people behind the scenes that he had been following a sorority girl. How many coincidences do police need before they begin to break out of their preconceived belief systems? There are over 50 in my case.
- Ted stated to investigators that the Green River killer may have used a drug or alcohol to “take the edge off the victims” while he had them in his possession and my account lined up exactly to this and this is something Ted did also to his victims. That has never been discussed publicly but the autopsies show this. To this day, the FBI and the so-called “experts” never talk of the actual evidence or if they do it seems to me they whitewash it to make it sound like they never knew about it and it is “new” but that is not true. It was in the evidence back then.
- Bundy showed up at my former room mate’s home the summer of 1975 – his actions were indicative of him looking to find me. At the time I had moved out of the annex [apartment behind the Theta house] and for the summer of 1974 to the McMahon dorm on campus for nursing. Then the fall of 1974 I moved to an apartment that was at the point on 45th where the road descended to the shopping center of University Village. There was a pathway that ran behind my apartment and went from the Greek row area to the Village. Surveillance records not only show Bundy returning again and again to my locations at the time but also going to the pathway that led to the Village. I have repeatedly asked for my phone records to be pulled as he was calling me over those 4 years. It was a very intense, confusing, frightening and distressing period of time for me. But knowing Bundy and his meticulous planning and set up of me, he probably called me from pay phone locations as I never called him that I remember.
From the records, an internal document, states that Bundy was known to have been out in the area of Taylor Mountain and knew it well as far back as 1972, 1973. From the witness statement: “[Witness] impression was that Ted may know the [Taylor Mountain] area very well. They used to drive through the area in 1972 and 1973.” This witness statement is also corroborated by another witness who stated Ted knew the area well. One of the witnesses told authorities that they [with Ted] had driven to the very entrance of what was to become the crime scene of Taylor Mountain – this was provided to authorities and they had all the evidence yet WA State failed to charge him when they had more available to do so than Utah or Colorado. One witness to his whereabouts near Taylor Mountain was subpoenaed to the court to testify. It has never been released what he said or why officials did not charge Bundy.
My emails are time and date stamped and saved to original servers – they precede the records by years and they PROVE beyond any doubt that my experiences are accurate to the details authorities hid of the case but these memories were also interfered with by Ann Rule and others because authorities referred me to book authors rather than investigating the case -WA State law enforcement would not talk to me at all [refused outright] but they did tell me to contact the book authors [Rule, Keppel and Michaud, the three who perpetrated the lies about the case] they exposed me to unethical manipulation by Keppel and Rule specifically and did not provide the protections I should have been afforded as a surviving victim. This is all documented as I saved the paper trail.
16] I pledged a sorority at the University of Washington that was just three blocks from Liz’s home on the same side of the street. In the records, a witness statement mentions that Ted stated he had followed a sorority girl on several occasions but told the witness at the time that nothing had happened – however this is a half truth of Ted’s. Something did happen – over and over – the kidnapping, rape, assault, captivity with imbibing of me. This statement of his in the records lines up with my stalking memories and I could not have known of this statement -Liz’s exact address was not published at the time I was coming forward back in 2001 to 2012. And if you add his statement to the correlations of my case, the deception of Keppel and Rule and others in perpetrating lies to the public, and the lies of the FBI that they weren’t involved until 1977 and the fact that the Justice Department KNEW a survivor existed that Ted had used for “dry runs” it is shocking and disgusting that law enforcement took the stance they have over the years.
17] My room in the sorority my freshman year was on the second floor, down the right hall and to the right and there were four of us in there. The window faced 18th There was a door in the back of the sorority that was often left open for the house staff. It opened directly into the stairway which led upstairs and had been used by fraternities for “raids”. This mirrors or is similar to the layout of the Florida sorority.
18] I went dancing at Dantes Tavern frequently with friends. At least two of these friends resembled two of Ted’s victims. Ted was known to hang out at Dantes and I had stated multiple times I’d seen him there. My best friend in high school looks like a twin to a missing girl in CA who disappeared around the time when Ted was making abduction attempts on me in high school and my friend at the time had interfered with his attempt without understanding necessarily what had been transpiring – neither of us understood the full danger of it. That missing girl in CA has never been found.
19] I mentioned in an email to authorities that Ted had sent a porno book to me via a nurse on the floor when I had been hospitalized [had given it to a nurse as he was restricted from the floor]. I described it and I stated it frightened me not due to violence but to what it implied. The porno book had never been made public but it is documented in the records and such a book was found at one of the kill sites. The porno book found at the kill site also makes me wonder as the character in it was named “Ted” and he was taking girls home to his residence. I wonder what happened to that book and why it wasn’t evaluated. Where was it published and by who and if not published but hand written was it a manifesto? This book is mentioned in detective street notes that were in the sealed files but I don’t see any other mention of it anywhere. This mention of the porno book by me in my memories preceded the records release to me and I stated multiple times that if such a book were in evidence I could identify it by the two pages I still remember to this day – not all the words, but I still see the pages in my head, I know what they said, and I know how badly they frightened me. I slept all night in the health center with the lights on and facing the door in case he tried to kidnap me from that setting. Yet they never investigated anything I’ve said nor the evidence I’ve provided.
20] I talked of feeling drugged multiple times and being always bound in my memories and chemical bottles were found on site at Taylor Mountain during the initial searches as well as a snug tie, thermos, lean to and other items. There were abandoned homes at each of the WA State kill sites. I could not have known of this information as the public story about Taylor Mountain has always been that nothing was found there but skulls, jawbones, and a few bunches of hair. My memories of drugging were accurate to what was found at his WA kill sites. My description of an abandoned home was accurate.
21] I talked in emails of being held captive in a place that had a lot of wood in it and which smelled “musty” like a room in my grandmother’s home which was never used near the attic upstairs. There were abandoned homes near each of the Issaquah and Taylor Mountain kill sites. Red matter was found on the basement walls of one such location and was removed as evidence by police.
22] In the fall of 1973 I moved to the sorority “annex” which was an apartment building which faced an empty lot, an alley, and was on 16th behind the Theta house. There was a large bush outside of my window [which faced the parking lot and alley] that shielded a car from observation as it wasn’t lit due to the bush. It was where Ted parked the night he abducted Georgann Hawkins. He had been stalking me and parking outside my window – something I had been telling authorities to no avail for years. He parked in that spot outside of my window the night he abducted George. This apartment complex where I lived was also per internal records, only two blocks from where Ted had lived at one time on 16th Avenue. Coincidentally, in my memories I mentioned this location[ where Ted had lived – did not know he’d lived there but mentioned the exact location] specifically even though it had never been published.
23] My memories contained specific details of where he parked during the time he was following me [stalking] and these exact locations were in the surveillance records of that time period and I had been coming forward years before any of these surveillance records were ever released or published [by authors]. My information in the broken and scattered bits of memories was accurate to the case details which had been sealed.
There are many more correlations.
Locations also correlate in multiple points of alignment: These support my contentions that he was stalking me during that time period [this list is not complete; there are many more instances]
- I lived in Tacoma and in Seattle at the University of Washington.
- I lived in the Bay area of CA in the city of Modesto until summer of 1970.
- I traveled to Modesto in 1971 during the summer with two friends and we took the 101 highway along the coast and cut inland in San Francisco after visiting Stanford. I went again to Modesto in December of 1971 for two weeks during Christmas break to visit friends and flew there. In the records Ted is noted as hitch hiking north of San Francisco – this was never released that I know of.
I went again to Modesto in the spring of 1972 to visit friends and flew there. I went again to California in the spring [spring break] of 1973 to Santa Barbara with two girls from my sorority. We drove 101 to get into San Francisco to go to Stanford where one of the girls had a friend there and then continued on to Santa Barbara. I went again to Modesto in the summer of 1973 and we drove along the coast highway again and again went to Stanford. The Santa Rosa killings started in 1971 and ended in 1973. Summer of 1973 was the last time I went to CA to visit the Bay area as I was starting nursing school. I ran away from Ted in the summer of 1975 under severe stress and returned fall of 1975. I quit nursing school and dropped out and ran to CA again to Los Angeles in the summer of 1976 and stayed away for 2 years.
I could not remember at that time anything that had happened to me and was in a severe state of traumatic amnesia.
- During high school in the summer of 1972 I went camping to Chelan. I went again to Chelan over Memorial Day in 1973.
- I went hiking around Point Defiance in high school and to Rainier several times in high school and in college. The road we took went very near the location of his kill sites in WA.
- I went to Canada, to Vancouver, in 1973 several times with a girl friend.
- I went to Oregon multiple times during the years 1972 to 1974, to games and to parties, and I was in both Corvallis and in Eugene at the time girls disappeared. He kidnapped me and released me in Oregon.
- I was modeling and traveling all over western WA during 1971 to 1974. I was in Olympia, Longview, Bellingham, Redmond, and others. A girl disappeared from Bellingham after being approached by a “Ted” in a similar manner to other disappearances. The FBI and Keppel choose to leave this out. They only acknowledge Rancourt but there were other circumstances they never pursued or discussed publicly. They shut it all down.
- I was in Spokane in the summer of 1974 to the World’s Fair. In the 1984 interview Bundy asks authorities about that summer, specifically stating summer of 1974 and Spokane when he was talking about the Green River Killer but his comment about the year 1974 was off from the 1980s that they were discussing and so they asked him and he quickly amended it to the 1980s. But I listen to it and I wonder if he stalked me to Spokane that summer as he was actively stalking me frequently during that time period.
- I lived in McMahon dorms during the summer of 1974 and was in nursing school. Caryn, a victim in CO, was a nurse. He attacked girls in the sorority in FL and then went a few blocks away and attacked another in a ground level apartment. I had moved from the sorority location on 18th my freshman year [1972-1973] of college to a sorority “annex” or apartment, a few blocks away which was behind the Theta sorority which my room faced the alley where Hawkins was taken. It was a daylight basement level apartment. My view from that apartment was about one foot off the pavement and the pavement at that time came right up to the building. Now there is a deep well there but it wasn’t there back then as people were often climbing in windows late at night to visit girlfriends or boyfriends. Where I had a room in the sorority at UW is nearly identical by description to where the Chi Omega girls were killed in Florida. The back door of our sorority led upstairs to the second floor and I was down the hall near the end on the right side with three other girls sharing the room. Those of us younger at the time[me] slept in a sleeping porch but our clothes and belongings were in the room. My room looked out over 18th avenue and I caught him staring at my window on 18th – that room on the second floor of the sorority. I told authorities this. He went up the stairs at Chi Omega down the hall on the right and killed two girls and attacked two others there before going a block away or so and attacking a girl in a lower level apartment. My room in the sorority mirrored this and so did my location behind the Theta House where Georgann Hawkins was taken. It was about a block and a half away and my apartment was a daylight basement apartment so there was a large window [which looked at the bush that edged the alley there and hid his car from view of the alley when he stalked me[. It all lines up. I can’t make this up. You can’t retrofit yourself into locations. Keppel and the FBI just wanted me silenced.
- I had been telling authorities that Ted started stalking me in high school and my locations during that time line up in proximity – his behaviors towards me back then in high school were very similar to Laura Aime and I had a hairstyle like hers [layered shag] and looked very similar. He held me in captivity to assault me and he also held Laura: he imbibed both of us with drugs or alcohol – mine felt like drugs and Laura was imbibed with alcohol per her autopsy. I was 17 y/o when he raped me and so was Laura. Melissa Smith in Utah was in cheerleading – he had known I was trying out for it as he was in contact with me initially in high school as a “friend” telling me he was a year older when he was in reality 8 years older. Luring me out in the context of friendship only to assault me violently. When I didn’t tell anyone as my family was new to the area, I was essentially captive from that point forward and he knew it. He’d written a rape paper [yes, they deny it but he did research and write a rape paper for the Crime Commission and I have a corroborating witness statement, his superior, that verifies it – I also have the rape paper in its entirety]. The only reason I am not known is that for years I did not want to be – I only wanted authorities to act on my information and help work the case of Hawkins and a few other unsolved cases that I felt may be related. Ann Rule asked me to put together a chart of the times and places I traveled to during the 1970 to 1974 period and I did and gave it to her and then she publicly defamed me, lied about me, and discounted the evidence saying someone in my family probably raped me. She was trying I believe to protect Keppel and take his viewpoint. There were at that time several points of quid pro quo between them. She wrote Keppel’s foreword for Riverman and told me she got him his editor for that book and he in turn promoted her as a “factual” crime writer and she was put on VICAAP which also is fraudulent in how it was developed [enlisting Bundy’s help].
These are only a few points that line up and I can’t reinvent where I lived, what I looked like and where I traveled. It corroborates my contentions of stalking and that I had been a victim. I think now, in hindsight, and with the wisdom that comes from assimilating all the evidence that was hidden and my broken memories, that I may have been one of his earliest victims and one he chose to develop as a prototype – his tactics worked on me largely because of my circumstances, and he may have felt that my behavior gave him insights into other victims of my age group. There are many many documents that were sealed away by authorities that support my memories, my experiences, and the details of the shattered bits of memory as well as the physical injuries I sustained. The authorities have denied my existence for decades and tried to steal my voice. This website and series of blogs is my way of regaining my rights as a victim and confronting my abusers – in this case the American justice system with all its flaws and the FBI with its false contentions of victim rights. I was never strong enough to go public with all of it, without support of law enforcement and/or an attorney, and without the records which prove beyond doubt that my experiences are factual and real – but after over 50 attempts of getting such support and failing from attorneys and law enforcement, I finally am going public. Some continue to ridicule me and doubt me and defame me….but truth and fact is on my side and I still believe that such things are enough to stand up for.